October 3, 2010
I have finally complied my 10 day experience in your wonderful presence in India in April. It is posted in the Kundalini Maha Siddha Yoga tribe group. It has long been over due and for that I am deeply sorry. You have been most patient and always expressing your concern for my well being - how much more grateful and blessed could I be? I hope that in this life time I can return the gratitude for all of your guidance and blessing.
I do not wish to over shadow the many new seekers who find you here, since I am already a devoted student I only wish to share that after a year and 10 months I am still in awe of this gift you have blessed me with, I live every day seeking to me more and more in balance and to be in sync with the divine dance of Kundalini Shakti.
in deepest gratitude
If anyone wishes to read my experience here is the link:
September 29, 2010
Dear Yogi Madan,
Thank you very much for your patience awaiting my feedback on the Kundalini Shaktipat you so graciously gave me. I had a deeply moving experience, and wanted to take some time to process it before relating it to you.
As I mentioned to you in the beginning, I had a Kundalini awakening many years ago, but was anxious for greater progress beyond my intermediate Kundalini rising. I am infinitely grateful to be able to say that the Kundalini Shaktipat from you has helped me to progress further! My humblest thanks to you, Yogiji Madan.
I will now relate my experiences as they occurred. I have spent many years researching information on Kundalini in my quest for greater awakening, and feel fairly well versed for a westerner in matters of the Subtle body, including: Chakras, Nadis, and Vayus. However, in case you decide to share my experiences with others, I will relate them with as little ‘technical’ terms as possible.
Our first day was the first day of the new moon. I woke up before 5 a.m., and began to meditate as instructed at the appointed time. I felt energy filling my body very soon, accompanied by a sense of joy. At perhaps the 10 minute point if felt a ‘pop’ in my inner being – not actually localized at one spot (which surprised me). It was subtle, but definite. I then began to feel a gradual increase in the energies in and around my neck and head. For much of the time the sensations felt like subtle churning in the center of my upper chest, my throat, my jaws, and my back teeth. It was much like waves of mild energy rolling around inside me and near me. Although I was elated that I could feel the movement of my Kundalini, I endeavored to maintain the stance of observer. Once the hour was over, I continued to feel the energies churning around my neck and jaws for several hours, gradually diminishing. I felt a happy peace all day.
On the second day, the energies once again filled my body, and within 10 minutes started concentrating on my right eye, and the bones surrounding the area. Although I continued to feel the churning energies everywhere from my neck upward, the most activity remained focused on my right eye. It was more intense and felt like rapid pin-point tingles in specific places, constantly moving in the eye area. It was not unpleasant, just very different from the previous activity. During this time I occasionally had brief mental images, sounds and/or feelings of people, places or circumstances, all of which felt ‘familiar’, even if I did not consciously recognize them. However, these were few, and all passed though my consciousness very quickly. About ten minutes before the hour was over the intense energy then began to diminish and spread across my face to include the area at the bridge of my nose, my other eye and my cheeks. By the time the hour was over I was once again experiencing the mild rolling energy in my neck and lower head. The energies abated more quickly than on the first day.
Day three seemed to take a bit longer for the energies to start moving again. This time the main activity felt to be in the cheek, upper jaw and ear area. I likened the sensation to that of ‘scrubbing bubbles’. Not abrasive, but very active, and cleansing in nature. This lasted through to about the half-way mark, then abated and the familiar mild churning sensation took over again from neck through lower head. However, I felt more energized after the hour was over than I had the previous 2 days.
On the forth day, the churning seemed to divide, residing mainly in the vicinity of my neck and my forehead (throat chakra- Vishuddha, and brow chakra- Ajna). Although the movement of energy in each area was independent, I got the impression that they were working together, as well. This separate-but-together movement was more pronounced than the ‘normal’ churning energy, but only lasted about 10-15 minutes. After this the remainder of the meditation was the familiar low-level energy from my neck up though my head to just below the top. Once again, fleeting familiar visions/sounds/feelings passed through my consciousness. The energies diminished rather rapidly after the meditation and were gone within about 15 minutes.
Day five was at first seemed less dramatic than some of the others, with more of the mild rolling/churning energy in the same areas as previous days, with the occasional fleeting vision/sound/impression. However, sometime after the half-way point I began to experience sudden jabs of slight pain in the crown area, like a pin/needle prick. The sensations were mild, and very short-lived. The final 10-15 minutes of the meditation were then back to the familiar churning/rolling, from my neck to below my crown.
The final day seemed surprisingly uneventful. The churning energies returned, but this time filled me from the neck through the top of my head. The occasional fleeting impressions came through, but no other experiences came about. At the end I felt peaceful, but tired, and eventually took a nap.
I admit that I thought that was the end of it, and expected that new things would gradually unfold in my life in response to the Kundalini Shakti process. However, the night of my last meditation was very different. During the evening as I was working, I suddenly noticed that I had ‘spots’ I my vision. This was familiar to me as ‘aura’ associated with migraine. I had not had a migraine in many years, and was surprised at the return. The onset was faster than I remembered, and the visual distortion took up my entire field of vision. I could no longer work, as I could not concentrate on anything. I tried to continue to read, but found I could not interpret the letters on the computer screen in from of me. I felt disconnected. The situation forced me to quit work for the night, handing over my shift to someone else, and go directly to bed. In the morning, although the visual distortion was gone, I had a low-level headache which lasted for 2 more days.
After one week, I now feel ‘normal’ again, but can somehow place myself in that ‘disconnected’ consciousness that I had the night after the Kundalini Shaktipat, just by thinking about it. It is an unusual state of mind/no-mind, which I recognize as a gift that I should explore further. However, I shall also endeavor to remain mindful not to allow myself to get caught up in the sensations, as my Kundalini shows me new horizons.
It is not my intention to infer that others will have similar experiences, including a migraine, from the Kundalini Shaktipat. It is simply one way that my body reacts to change. Although it was uncomfortable during that one point in my process, I totally feel that the end result was more than worth it.
I highly encourage all seekers to partake of Kundalini Shaktipat from you, most honorable Yogiji Madan. I am sure that they will experience much greater spiritual development as a result of the process.
Thank you very much Yogiji Madan! I am eternally grateful to you and your entire lineage for your assistance. If it is possible to have Kundalini Shaktipat with you again in the future, please let me know, as I enthusiastically welcome it!
In Loving Service,
February 10, 2010
Here is my testimony about my shaktipat initiation
First a little explanation is needed to defining the Shaktipat: the awakening of the kundalini through the Guru (means Master in India). Shaktipat is a secret way to awaken the Kundalini Shakti of the disciple by the power of a Guru who normally has sworn in a line. Only sincere seekers are qualified to receive such an initiation. Because the characteristics of all other methods of Yoga, based on individual effort, begin to occur spontaneously after awakening and activation by Shaktipat, this method is called Maha Yoga, Yoga large. Shaktipat is the traditional method by which a Guru awaken you spiritually.
After reading the book "The Yoga Shaktipat" by Ravindra Kumar I got interested more deeply on the subject, something drawing me, calling me. After some Internet searches I realized there was a lot of gurus performing the shaktipat (the author of The Yoga Shaktipat although warn the reader of the difficulty of finding a real Master) whose initiation is carried out in Belgium and France, so I contacted directly the person shown on the website for more information: He proved in this case that this shaktipat was made by video conference because the Guru couldn't move cause of the very important disciple receiving initiation. I do not review this approach and how to do, but I do not feel at all attracted to this approach and have therefore continued my search and finally drop onto the page where there was a lot of testimony that seemed sincere and very positive, always ending by thanking the Master to be awake. I directly contacted the Master: "Yogi Madan Gautam" after reading all the testimony. He answered all my questions with great ease (he also made clear that I do not need any preparation or knowledge of specific meditation or anything) and invited me to come to India to receive my initiation if such was my desire. I agreed directly and took my steps to be able to come join him two months later.
When I arrived at Yogi Madan Gautam (near dheli around 2am) I received a warm welcome, his wife gurumai (name given to the wife of a Lord) made us tea and we sat there talking.Yogi madan explained the specific ways to meditate during and after the initiation which differs widely from all the technique I have approached till now.He explained me the nature of things, human relations and the way of finding a balance always by refering to nature and animals. He explained me as well what a good Guru is: he never ask money for shaktipat initiation, he is there to awaken the disciple and never impose anything, a Guru always watch over the disciples and remains in constant contact with them to guide them ... We talked about many other things but it would take too long to recount here.
This exciting conversation ended around 7:30 am, then he asked me if I was still in shape to begin a meditation. To my surprise I was not tired at all (after more or less the 24 hours of travel) and approved.
1st session on 04-01-10 from 7:30 am At 9:
Yogi madan asked me to put myself in a comfortable position and begin meditation with closed eyes and to let come the different reaction and expression of the body. After a moment I began to move, shake and then sing a mantra that came to me instinctively (which I already knew) "om namah sivaya"
I must say I felt nothing special, except a lot of freedom, serenity and gentle pressure to the third eye. I should also clarify that I never meditate more than half an hour in a row but here the time passed so quickly without any psychological resistance.
After meditation Yogi madan said that my Shaktipat would be done quickly, that I was well prepared. And by doing 2-3 sessions during 3 days the initiation should be done. He said he also knew that my approach was sincere and that after the initiation he recommended me to meditate at least 1 hour per day and should be between 6 months and years to except the rise of Kundalini and have my channel fully open. Our conversation finished around 12pm and I went to sleep for 2h.
2nd Session 04-01-10 from 18h to 19h:
Again I let me go, the automatic movement quickly began, Yogi madan put music during each session (this is optional), it carried me with the singing of the Guru and that of Gurumai. I moved and turned like a spin on myself but kept my lotus position, my movements were sometimes a resonance, then I shouted: "Om Shivaya" on the rhythm of the music. They were throwing flower petals and I suddenly smelt a strange odor.
3rd Session 05-01-10 from 07h to 9am:
I began meditating alone in the lotus position on the ground as usual in the lounge. For the first time in the quiet, with my hands I touched my chakras and the injected energy gave answers. My meditation deepens with the time and energy was clearly felt. After a while I went to sit in the chair because my position was becoming uncomfortable. The movement began slowly, Guru madan arrived to give further impetus to the movement, he also put strong pressure on the third eye. The movements now deeply installed were running this session to a showdown until the congratulated hits me, emotions came out through my eyes, my body started to shake , I could not continue the automatic movements (the music was glorious). The trembling and tears flowed until that settles the calm and joy. Then I began to dance to thank the universal force and finally I inclined to my master.
4th Session 05-01-10 from 12 am to 13h:
Start on the ground in the lotus position, as usual the automatic movements quickly took their place, then I began to breathe rapidly and I felt an intense vibration but very short. Around half of the session I went to sit on the chair and I began to recite following mentra "om nava shiva" and more than mentra "Om" out loud. The resonance was very beautiful, the sound becoming increasingly long, it was as if there were unsuspected reserves of air available to the mantra, every time I thought coming after my breath a new air supply came to me. All that mixed, it's like I heard all the letters by reciting only one.
After this meditation I felt peaceful and inner quiet,
5th Session 05-01-10 of 18h10 to 19h
Before I start I asked my guides to prepare me for the coming of the Almighty. The automatic movements came immediately, Guru madan approached me and after a while whispered me the Shakti. I saw my body as the universe, every organ and part of my body was celebrating the coming of divine energy, my heart was the sun and the moon at the same time, they freeded the energy of the universe and I had visions of nature, landscapes, animals in peace and calm, everything was full of joy and complete harmony. They were me and I was them. The intense emotion of joy was flowing out of my eyes, there was resistance at first, my ego wanted to end this state but Shakti was stronger. What happiness! Guru Madan thank you!
Guru madan then explained me that I lived the UNION, 1, EVERYTHING.The unity with space, land, plants and animals
It is true that at this moment I realized that we all join, that everything is connected and comes from the same source. This has lead me to feel a deep respect to every being.
6th Session 06-01-10 from 7:15 am to 08h25
Start on the ground in the lotus posture, automatic movements and feeling of some chakras.
After a while I went to sat on the couch, strong shaking, then Guru madan arrived and hit my third eye and crown chakra.To follow it he started a rotation and touched the heart chakra. I had again the vision of nature, animals and the cycle of the 4 elements. The feeling of harmony made me began to cry. This time there was a mixture of sadness and joy even if the vision was full of harmony.
After that session my Guru madan said to let the shakti having a free hand, not to try to control, allowing it to act, to trust him. Do not repress his feelings or his wishes and let nature while watching over her. Let the body relax and so flexible that he is free of any movement.
7th Session 06-01-10 from 11am to 12pm
The session was hold only sitting on a chair, the movement quickly started, then I had the vision of angels, elfs, queens, fairy and other elementary entities greeting me, the image of the universe appeared to me several times. This is the first time that madan guru ended the meditation, because we had to go.
8th session 07-10-01 of 05h at 7:10 am
Automatic movements, deep breathing and visualization of prana that enters the lungs and then spread it out through the body. Viewing of the 3rd eye. Felt a strange vibration while stopping the automatic movement at the root chakra. I had the vision of one eye and in his reflection I could see the sun.
Conversation the day before the initiation
Guru madan asked me if my doubts were dissipated and if I got what I came for. I told him to be honest I had imagined something else before comingI imagined I could feel the energy coming from him and inside of me, what it does not happen as I had imagined, I also thought that I would have no control over the automatic movements meanwhile I could always maintain control over everything if I wanted. Then there were the vision and embodiment in nature, space, animals and the feelings of energy from a different nature . The emotions brought harmony and deep peace. Finally there is also the change in the way of seeing things that made that my doubts are dissipated and I must say I got more than expected.
Madan Guru replied that everyone reacts differently and live things differently, the importance is the honesty, trust and devotion. Do not attach to the phenomenon and especially do not try to reproduce them, it could just slow down the progress and perhaps even block it. Trust in the Shakti, the Guru and let the natural course happend. Finally he said that he felt that I was ready for initiation and it will take place tomorrow.
Initiation Shaktipat 08-01-10
Before initiation we (Guru Madan ,his son and me) went to buy fruits and flowers as a present for madan Guru and the other lineage (not living on this flat) and a carpet for meditation (called Aasan ). Then I took a shower and got ready. Meanwhile Guru madan prepared the place of ceremony: He put his assan opposite of mine, between us there was at the coronation of the Ganges (which is a sacred river in India), the sacred fire of incense, fruits, flowers, powder of sandal-wood, raw rice and rolls of thread. On the side there were the pictures of our lineage Gurus: MAHAYOGA THIRTH.
I put me on my Assan and Guru madan arrived in beautiful orange coat and went to sit in front of me on his Aasan. He started me to re-explain in what it involves entering the line of AIDS Mahayoga Thirth: Devotion, Liver, Honesty, Practice ...
He then took his oak Rudraksha (equivalent to a rosary) and started whispering mentras. Then he made me repeat after him the application, the sacred covenant, the word that resembles the sacred covenant of marriage. Then it was he who recite my pact and admitted me,
To follow he blessed me with the water, passed the sacred fire mark with sandal-wood powder and then I marked him (level of the third eye) and I made it into a grain of rice. After we mutually put the thread around the wrist strap as bracelet. Pui Guru madan offered me a Rudrakshas necklace and a scarf (or rather a chaal Stchada made of pure Pachmina wool),
(I omit to express certain details that are revealed only to the insider)
After the ceremony we meditate together. Guru Madan recited a mentra out loud and I felt the energy coming out of his mouth coming to me. After a moment he stood up and touched my head at the crown chakra and the emotions directly came up, the tears were flowing several times during this meditation. After meditation as I opened my eyes I realized I was not anymore at all in the line of departure.
Gurumai joined us and was still in deep meditation, guru madan he had a beautiful smile. Thank you for that wonderful introduction.
09-01-10 1 hour of meditation 3
Today another disciple came to meditate with the Guru and me. The automatic movements started quickly followed by shivering, the hairs of my body straightened. The emotions came already after the first minutes. Several visions came to me during this session, one where I was a Shaman / Guru or Mage in the middle of the woods excusing a ritual before a fire and everything around the fire and me were all sorts of animals watching at me carefully.
Another vision I had was of a mountain and everywhere there were people climbing, at the top of it there was a very deep whole leading to the center of the base of that mountain and at this specific place there is a sun,There was also a fluorescent purple colour who appeared in an abstract form.
10-01-10 from 02h to 03h.
I woke up at 01h30 and couldn't sleep no longer so I got up and meditated.Very quickly I had visions followed of intense tears, I found myself in the woods again incarnate as old shaman or other, there was a tent and on the side a blue eyes wolf, I was at the tent stirring small pieces of wood and small bones. I mumbled a foreign language and felt great pain as if a great drama were happening at that time, and again in my vision I do not cry anytime.There were lots of other little visions of nature, the jungle and also a nice little; wearing like a Peruvian tunic stripped smiling at me. During this session a word came to me Katenga or KATONG I do not know exactly and I don't know not what it means.Throughout this session my chakra was feeling well.
10-01-10 from 03h to + or - 04h30
After my meditation I tried to sleep again but unsuccessfully. I then began my relaxation followed by a meditative walk (which is a display base for regression) Suddenly I find myself in the Himalayas (in any case it was in the area) on a snowed top, it was beautiful, the sky was clear and the sun warmed me. I went down the slope and I found myself in front of a cave, I decided to enter and discovered a man with long beard, it was Swami Narayan Dave Thithi One of our Guru lineage. He invited me to sit around the fire. Before I settled down I inclined me to him touching his foots by demanding his grace. The fire was different from all the fire I saw before I can't explain it to me even the emitted light was different from a conventional fire. Once installed I asked him the secret of IQ. He replied that part of the secret was in the fire. While he answered me it's like the scene where we were , came Inside my body.He said that this fire should always be sufficient and that he would now make me feel where this fire is. It was then that I felt an energy flowing through my foots and focused at this specific location.Then I asked him why all these emotions of sadness came out of me during some meditation. He gave me the vision of human bones and he told me that they were all close. I deduced that there was indeed a tragedy in a past life.Then he told me it was time to separate us and that I could see him whenever I wanted. I touched his foots (as the disciple does when he greets his master)and returned to myself, always keeping the sensation of energy who gradually fade Inside of me. I could sleep only around 6am
11-01-10 from 03h to 04h
Again I woke up after being unable to sleep. I therefore took the opportunity to do my meditation. Automatic movements, deep breathing and appearance (vision) of the Guru Swami Narayan Tirtha Dave he touched my solar plexus chakra and I felt a power transmission focusing on this chakra, Then he asked me to contemplate the fire there in. By then I felt the energy flowing from my root chakra and crown. I also recited the mentra Om nava shiva "
This was my last meditation before returning by aircraft to my country. Before returning Guru madan said he had high hopes that I realized quickly.
I thank them for their kindness, their sense of sharing and enlightenment they gave me without ever asking anything in return. Guru Mdan Gautam is a great Guru and guides: simple, honest, well sure. I know that my story will appear in the eyes of some as an imaginary story or storyteller. However I assure you that I have written as I lived and shared hoping to help any sincere seeker to find the required information. Others will see may be something miraculous, magical or satanic. Again I promise you there's nothing more natural than to let her body speak if it is physical, mental or psychological . There are no miracles and certainly no satanic. Here the first goal is to achieve, to find inner peace and live in harmony with everything around us and make every moment more beautiful life experience. Each initiation Shaktipat is different and everybody will live in his own way, from his personality. We must trust and let the Shakti, the rest is done automatically.
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February 2, 2010
To all seekers and those interested in the Blessing that is brought through the awakening of the Goddess Kundalini:
I was initiated into this path by Yogi Madan in January of 2009. it has now been a little over a year and I wanted to write up a little update.
First I want to thank Yogi Madan. Yogi Madan has proven to be the most caring and sincere person I have meet in my life. Through my whole awakening process Yogi Madan has been there to guide me and make sure all was going well. It is true that with out the grace of a True Guru the awakening of Kundalini can be very traumatic. Yogi Madan was always present to answer my questions and concerns. Not once did I ever feel frighten or concerned about my well being. Yogi Madan is not just a bestow'er of Shaktipat, but an honest and sincere person who truly does want to help other people.
Since the beginning of Yogi Madan's Great Lineage, Shaktipat has been passed down from one Great Guru to the next... never bought or sold, or even traded. This is a gift that is given freely to those who sincerely seek it.
Yogi Madan did not ask me to write this, this is something I wanted to do for him because he has given so much of his time and patience in helping me - I wanted to be able to do something in return.
Many people have written to me to ask how have I progressed.
Well, it is very hard for me to explain to each person since I would have to tell them everything about my life for them to be able to understand the effects and changes that have taken place. I can honestly say though, that I am living a much fuller life that before. Kundalini is not something that is only with me during meditation, I feel the Goddess everyday and every moment. Sometimes strong energy rising from my chest, other times pressure on the back of my neck. But it is not the sensations or energy that has had the biggest impact but the Goddess her self. To go through a Kundalini awakening for me was to know my true self, some call this the inner Guru, the God within each of us. I dont think that I have reached that center yet, but I think I am experiencing the layers that lead to it. The only was I can describe what I am going through is to say that " Kundalini is so unique and personal to each one of us yet at the same time it is so universal because it exists within each of us and all things."
And the Next most wonderful thing is to have a teacher like Yogi Madan.
Kundalini It is not only the map but also the path to self realization. And I thank Yogi Madan for lighting that path for me.
October 17, 2009
I have been a spiritual seeker all my life (I'm 46). I've been very interested in awakening my Kundalini for some time now, but have never been able to do so on my own, no matter how much or how long I meditated. I'm not sure now how I found Yogi Madan, but after reading some of the other testimonials, I thought he may be able to help. There are so many self-proclaimed gurus on the Internet now, many of them charging money for such services, so I knew this man must be very different. And I was right!
Although I didn't have very extreme experiences during the six days of Shaktipat, the peace and energy that I felt during the first day were very physical. A wonderful warmth permeated my entire being afterward, but the most interesting experience came for me that first evening after I lie down to sleep. I found myself in a "mind awake, body asleep" state, which I believe has also been called "Clear Light Sleep" by some long-time meditators. I could hear my body breathing heavily, deeply asleep, but my mind was detached, calm, very aware, and feeling very, very blissful. I think I was lying there for several hours like this, simply enjoying the sensations. I have read that some advanced Yogis no longer sleep because they no longer need to, and though I only had this experience the first night, I can see now that this is actually possible.
Although the rest of the meditation sessions were relatively uneventful compared to what others have experienced here, at this moment I can certainly feel the tingling sensation up my spine and on my crown whenever I focus on it. To be honest, I thought that a kundalini awakening might be more intense, and perhaps even TOO intense, and a part of me was hoping for that in order to "prove" to myself that it was real. As it turns out, however, I am EXTREMELY grateful that I can feel the Shakti at all, because I know that in time my experiences will grow as I do. Even as I sit here writing this, I can feel the gentle tingling of the Shakti on my crown, reminding me that we are all spiritual beings in a world of wonder of which we can only see a very small part.
Yogi Madan is a real Yogi. His gift to me, which was freely given by my asking, means more to me than I can ever express. He is gladly awakening the Shakti in all those who wish it, and what a wonderfully compassionate thing to do in a world that is now in such desperate need of it!
Blessings and Love to Yogi Madan and the Siddha Yoga Lineage!
August 27, 2009
Yesterday I received distant Shaktipat for firts time from Guru Madan.
I started sitting on a mat at 8 pm and meditate, as agreed with Guru Madan. Started feeling warm energy in specific parts of my body, especially head, hands and sacral bone area. Also I had a bit of shivers in my body, like those before a fever. After shaktipat I went to sleep, my back was really hot, I was feeling very hot.I haven't had any mystic vision or kriya movement as Guru Madan made it so that I didn't get that kind of experience as I told him I am very scared and don't want to feel too much spaced out. So don't be scared of shaktipat, it will happen in gentle way if that is what you prefer.
I am still under the shaktipat effect, my mind is like more still and it seems difficult to think, like unnatural.
I suggest you to contact Guru Madan if you are interested in awakening kundalini.
I asked him if I could send him a symbolic offer for the shaktipat and he said he doesn't accept payments for shaktipat as it is all garce of all Great Gurus of his Lineage including Maha Avatar Babaji if the shaktipat can happen. He is definitely a genuine Guru!
Thank you Guru Madan!
I hope many others will have possibility to experiment shaktipat through your Grace!
July 19, 2009
Yogi Madan was kind enough to offer me Kundalini Shaktipat awakening. I am a westerner living in the Caribbean who has only connected with Yogi Madan via email and one telephone call. I didn't know what to expect but I had been hoping for a Shaktipat experience for years. But I was aware that most authentic Indian yogis shun westerners and I wasn't very hopeful. More so when I realized that it would be a remote experience (long distance). But I decided to follow his instructions and I was amazed by my experience. Here are the details:
Everything went amazingly well. I was overwhelmed with the "power" of Mother Shakti. Within five minutes of sitting down, my upper body began to roll around and I felt my hands grow hot. There were some pin pricks in my shoulder and a pain ran through my right leg (which pains me because I jog regularly). Then I felt my arms and legs out of control, going in different directions. My hands began to shake uncontrollably during the sessions I had to get up at one point and begin a jerky dance routine. I felt my inner thighs hitting each other during the thrashing around. My feet also began to stomp around of their own accord. Then I felt myself being pushed downward and then pulled back upwards and in between my upper body would keep rolling around. I felt like I was drunk most of the time, slurring my words.
I sang silly songs, made funny high-pitched noises like an ambulance siren and then roared quietly like a lion. Then I began acting like a baby, gurgling, and calling"mama". At one point in time I found myself uttering only words beginning with the letter "f" such a fuggy, flew, fooh, fley etc. I also made a lot of gutteral sounds from my throat as if I were trying to free something stuck in there. At times I felt myself screaming but in a subdued way so only I could hear myself.
In the first 30 minutes or so, I was sweating a lot and felt my clothing becoming damp. Afterwards, I cooled off a bit. The energy stayed with me for approximately 1 hour and 25 minutes with a few short breaks in between, none lasting more than 2 minutes. Every time I prayed to Kundalini Shakti, She came back and I felt Her energy coursing through me again making my arms and legs move about without control. I think She was actually listening to me! I felt very nauseous for about an hour and more than once I made my way to the sink to vomit but nothing came up.
At 2.00 pm my time, I was so exhausted I had to lie down. I gave thanks to the Mother, the Lineage Gurus and your kind self for helping me with this awakening.
All of this is very astounding, given the fact that anyone who knows me will tell you that I am very conservative in my behaviour - very prim and proper. I speak very softly and I don't drink, eat meat or go out dancing and I never shout. And yet, there I was under the influence of Mother Kundalini acting very contrary to my usual behaviour!
However, at the end of the session I just felt lighter and 'cleaner' not necessarily blissful.
I also noted that I began feeling lighter in the morning even before you started your prayers and invocations. In fact I noticed a few beneficial things happening that were not expected - concerning mundane matters. I don't know if there is a connection or it is just coincidence.
So there you are! A full report and my deepest thanks for your effort and devotion. Tomorrow we continue again, same time and same place.
Well the second day was fine and very similar to the first day. There was less thrashing around with the hands and feet and fewer gutteral sounds but still enough to make me tired at the end of the session. She rolled me around and there were intervals with intense leg movements. The "f' sounds continued and at times I felt myself hissing like an angry snake or singing in a high pitched tone.The overall feeling of drunkeness stayed with me throughout the session. Whenever I tried to tie my hair up, Mother Kundalini would shake me from side to side until my hair came cascading down - almost as if She didn't want the hair tied up. There were a few heavy inhalations and exhalations. I had more mental experiences this time with a feeling of whizzing through the cosmos. The feeling of nausea was present and I suspect it might be connected to the vigorous upper body movements which gave me motion sickness. (I suffer from motion sickness when I drive through high altitudes). I drank some water and the nausea disappeared.
At the end of the session, I gave thanks to Mother Kundalini, the Lineage Gurus and your good self.
So there you have it for Day Two.
Thank you so much again and we shall begin tomorrow at the same time.
Today's Shaktipat went well with a difference. There were less physical movements. It took longer for me to feel the Energy but She did come. It was more mental this time. Actually I was a little worried because I woke up with bad nausea this morning and (tiredness as well) and I wondered if my stomach could take more shaking up. But I was prepared for anything.
I had my eyes closed and felt the impact from the crown of my head when She descended upon me. She shook me up a bit and drunken feeling came but there was less thrashing around this time. I did have the urge to spit out the "f" words and there was some hissing and high-pitched noises but not with the same intensity like Monday. She kept moving me backwards and forwards and I felt my upper body being pushed down over my knees several times. While down with my eyes closed, I would see the colour blue - a deep dark, rich blue in various patterns. Once or twice, I saw this blue colour in a pattern of indescribable beauty with tiny points of lights in other colours sparkling in the collage. Another time I saw the same blue in a mechanical design that wasn't pretty. When I attempted to raise my head with my eyes still closed, I would see red everywhere in the form of a huge red sun shining at me.
She was very quiet at times and I would also close my eyes during these moments. I would see an inner sky with waves of beautiful multi-coloured clouds rolling across each other. Once I saw pink and at other times, I saw blues, greys and greens. It was quite stunning. I recall seeing an avenue of yellow lights as well.
At the end of the session, she shook me up again, rotated my body until the chair shaked a bit and then She left.
As usual I gave thanks for the Blessing of Her Grace and to all who helped me in the initiation.
So there you have it for Day 3.
How are you? Well today was different. There was very little physical movement although I did get rolled around a bit ...but no dancing or hands and feet moving in different direction. There were a few hard breath exhalations and a few facial contortions. The feeling of drunkeness was not as intense as before. It was largely mental in that I had inner experiences similar to those I have in meditation. I closed my eyes and saw the inner sky with multi-coloured waves of spectacular dimensions. I felt the energy descend upon money every time I prayed to Her. I felt light.
So there you have it. Thank you again for the patience and time and I also express deepest gratitude to Mother Kundalini Shakti and the gurus of the Siddha lineage for their grace.
See you again tomorrow at the same time.
I trust that you are well. Day five of Shaktipat went well. There were more physical movements today than yesterday and I felt Mother Kundalini more intensely although not as intensely as Monday. I found myself singing all kinds of silly little songs, in languages I don't understand. Most of it must have been nonsense but the urge to sing was very strong. There was a little shaking up and rolling around as well. I felt myself exhaling very strongly at times and a gutteral sounds came from my throat. I felt myself spitting out words beginning with "f" again. At one time She made me jump up and down for about a minute. At another time She made me shout out loud for a second.
There fewer mental experiences today but I felt light bordering on a gentle form of detached bliss. The feeling of drunkeness was there and it stayed with me for up to 20 minutes after the session ended at 2 pm (my time).
So there you are...once more my deepest gratitude to you, the Mother and Gurus of the Siddha lineage.
See you tomorrow at the same time for the final session.If there is anything I need to know with respect to following up, please let me know.
Yesterday, the last day of Shaktipat went well. There were fewer physical movements and almost no mental experiences. I felt myself singing, yawning and moving around my arms and feet a bit. I was feeling a little low in spirits in spirits before I started but after I completed the session, I felt better. Now I will continue my prayers and meditation and see what happens. I intend to visit to visit India later this year or next year and I shall be considering some of the ashrams I see listed on your links.
So there you are.... once again thank you so much for your assistance. Thanks to as well Mother Kundalini Shakti and the gurus of the Siddha Lineage. If there is anything that you wish me to do for you, please let me know. I shall give a small offering to the homeless as a debt of gratitude for this awakening.
January 31, 2009
The upliftment and healing is incredible - yes... there is nowhere else to go but inside.
January 26, 2009
I have been on the path for many years and have
experienced a few periods of incredible
connection and bliss, grace of god. I recieved a
message from yogi gautam one day and was blessed
to receive shaktipat from him. The following
were my experiences.
I began to meditate at 8:30 am. I was not sure
how to meditate and look at you and your lineage
at the same time. What I did was try to memorize
what everyone looked like and to visualize them
and you while in my meditative state. I felt a
lot of very icy cold energy, as if being in icy
water. I felt waves of goose bumps. I felt
pain in my neck and shoulders, then down my spine and
finally in my left buttock, strong. In my
sciatic nerve, in my lower spine. In my arms and
my legs. I have much blockage! I felt a lot of
cold energy moving in my meridians. I saw very
bright white light, I felt your presence. I
heard you telling me to not be so distacted.
That is all I remember. Many blessings to you,
and thank you,
I am so sorry, I am crying in frustration. I do
not understand why I cannot do this. I do not
want to waste your time and energy. I have tried
everything. I just cannot stand the cold. I have
been cold for so long. I will stop my whining. I
have been praying and praying for surrender.
I sat for meditation, actually I did a bit
better at that part today, I was less
distracted. I felt a lot of very cold goosebump
type of energy. Waves of it. I had less pain
today, only in the left side of my neck. Will, I
know. I had a lot of sexual images. I saw a
bright white dot of light coming toward me,
getting closer and then I tried to draw it into
my self. I think it came into me. Thank you
so much, many heartfelt blessings to you, still
praying for surrender,
Today was so much better! And there was a lot,
I will try to remember it all. I began with
gloves on, under the covers (!) but I heard
'take off the gloves', ha, so I did. I felt/saw
you and all your Gurus around me, we were in a
circle. Then we were traveling, we went to a
temple, then mountains of Tibet, then Machu
Pichu ( I always wanted to go there). I saw
colors, very deeply hued, purple, blue orange
yellow red, a crown, then a shape I think like a
pope's hat (?) I am definitely not catholic. It
was kind of like a pyramid. I felt pressure on
my shoulders, a weight. My neck hurt but just
for a moment. I felt many waves of the cold
goose bumpy energy. I think pressure on my crown
( all 3 days, I forgot to mention that). I kept
coming back to seeing all the Gurus around me. I
heard things like people speaking. I kept
chanting Sat Nam and Ong Namu Dev Guru. To try
to bring my focus back. I saw myself travel back
in my life to when I was a baby and saw myself
getting beaten with fists. As far as I know this
did not happen to me, it did happen to a friend;
I saw myself being thrown across a room into a
wall. This happened to the same friend. It could
have happened to me. I saw myself in my teen
years, a very humiliating sexual experience,
shameful, and was shown that the two events were
connected. That my lack of self love was due to
early abuse. I knew this, I am not sure why I
was shown, perhaps I need to be more aware, or
need to do more forgiving. I then had the very
strong pain in my left hip/leg, I relaxed into
it instead of fighting it. It was very strong.
It could just be due to my position. I also had
a pain which I have had for years and could
never figure out what it was, I think I was
shown that it was due to my tailbone being
broken when I was 20 and I fell on some ice.It
is being straightened, or kundalini needs to
enlarge or move something. I had a lot of sexual
feelings and I saw fire in my 1st chakra then
all the main chakras were lit. I felt more waves
of the goose bumps, then a lot of sexual energy.
I saw Shakti and Shiva at one point, Shakti was
all golden and she entered me, and I sort of
'became' her. I think that is all, I stopped
early all 3 days, but I lasted longer every day,
today I made it till about the last 10 minutes.
I feel very peaceful, grateful and peaceful.
Today was strange...I feel like I did well with
the meditative state, but not too much seemed to
happen. I got a lot of waves of tingly energy, a
lot of waves of electrical feeling energy, lots
of very bright white energy, a lot of Golden
light, a lot of green, a weight or pressure on
my chest, the pain in my hip, and in my neck,
both left side, sexual feelings, a feeling as
tho things were just being gotten ready.
An image of the goddess taking me apart and re-
arranging my parts.
Today was bad. I was very distracted, it was
very loud here, no help for it. I could not get
into and stay in meditative state. I did see
colors, bright white light, golden light, a pale
blue/purple. I heard bells.
Today was much better than yesterday. I got a
lot of bright white and golden light, waves of
energy, I saw myself being born, coming out of
the birth canal. I saw the bright light going
into my perineum. I got the pain in my neck, but
much less so and I kept imagining it being
massaged and removed and the pain would lesson.
I made it for the entire hour and a half. All in
all it was good. I kept doing the root lock,
trying to bring up the Kundalini, but it didn't
This was a wonderful experience and I thank you
for the shaktipat. I would definately reccomend
it to anyone who is seeking.
Thank you so much yogi gautam , you are my very blessed
Guru and I love you dearly. Namaste. Carol
January 8, 2009
I trust that many of you reading this have found Yogi Madan’s post/blogs inspiring and or intriguing. I was and am very much taken aback by Sir’s openness and straight forward honesty in responses in posts and blogs.
This is taken from my first email to Yogi Madan :
“I have never sought a Guru before, as you may have come to see that Western society has tainted the words Guru from it's true meaning thus robbing both sincere Guru and disciple from reaching their chance encounters. But I have also been told that when a true seeker is ready and Teacher will be there waiting.”
I never felt that anyone one I found was a true of heart Guru. And I was just as cautious as I see many on this site are. If you are one that is, I suggest you go through Yogi Madan’s blogs and read through the blogs regarding Sir’s Lineage. And understand that you are in the presence of a great gift that was nearly lost but through selfless devotion these great Gurus have made this wonderful blessing available to us, they only ask that you seek it with a true heart.
I contacted Yogi Madan through email and was very hopeful that my search for a true of heart Guru was not in vain. Yogi Madan responded and we set an agreed upon date and time when I was to receive my initiation of Shaktipat. Here I share with you six days of my experience:
Day1: Promptly at the agreed time I sat in my make shift meditation room. I was a bit nervous and did my best to keep an open mind and have faith in Yogi Madan.
Just as I sat down and began to take deep breaths it sounded as if many bees where in the room with me. Then slowly My body began to tremble uncontrollably. I did my best to keep praying and in the midst of the body trembles I felt the presence of two great Gurus, one on my right side and the other on my left meditating with me. Then I felt a great energy rise up from the bottom of my spine all the way up to my chest. It was so powerful that I felt like I could not breathe. My heart was beating fast. I did my best to stay calm and surrender to Kundalini. I felt so many energies in my body. Then I saw many images in my mind, some of people I’ve never met before, others where animals like a snake, and eyes. I keep trying to stay focused and allow Kundalini to take over. Then a clear vision came into my mind, I saw clearly that I was in a garden meditating. The vision faded but I was left feeling very blissful and at peace. Then it felt as if someone had their hand on my forehead, it was a slight pressure. Following that my left leg began to ache very bad, while I felt so much energy moving around in my body. Out of my control my torso began to move back and forth then in a circle, then my lower half did the same thing. My eyes flew open, I tired to close them but I could not, I felt like I was only in my body but did not control of it. I laid down in corpse pose and felt more energy moving and centered at my 2 chakra and slight sensations up my abdomen and in between my eyes. The top of my head began to vibrate. It was nearly 2 and a half hours before I came out of meditation.
Day2: This sitting was much more peaceful and calm. Sometimes I felt a little sad but then happy again. As soon as I sat down to meditate my torso began to move back and forth then in a circle, I moved like this the whole time in meditation. The movements felt very snake like, the whole time I felt very blissful. I felt vibrations at the bottom of my spine then it started to burn all the way up to my chest, I felt energy moving on the right and left side of my spine, with right side being strongest. I felt pressure on my for head and the top of my head. And when the energy is strong in my chest I feel like I can not breathe, but the feeling does not last very long. I saw the image of a woman.
After meditation I felt very peaceful and forgiving of myself and everyone around me. My spine still felt hot. And throughout the rest of the day if I sat still enough Kundalini energy would take over and my body would again begin the movements from earlier in meditation and strong energies at the bottom of my spine would rise up.
Day3: Today's sitting was much more subtle than the first two. As soon as I began to meditate I felt a piercing pain, like someone one burning a hole in the back of my neck and spine. I felt a cool burning sensation in my lower spine that keeps trying to come up and I feel the energy very strong like a million bees buzzing in my spine then come all the way up to the back of my head, but it only lasted for a little bit. I saw more visions of a snake and visions of eyes. I tried to remain focused on meditating.
It felt like there was a great Guru sitting in front of me. Then there was pressure on my forehead and it felt like someone was squeezing my whole heard and my head pulsed three or four times then the feeling was gone. After that I think I went into a trance (partially awake and asleep) and then I had a vision of a garden and a great master was sitting on a lotus flower with many petals, he was very old and was wearing a white robe and holding a wooden staff, he had white and gray hair and a beard. I was praying at his feet but I was a man. I felt the master was teaching me many great things but I don't know what. I don’t know how I know he is a master and I've never seen his image before in my life. Then I felt Kundalini very strong in my spine and my body jerks and my breathing changed to be more deep.
After meditation I had mixed emotions, I felt great sadness(I was on the verge of tears) but also a deep compassion for Mother Earth in my heart while in my head I felt peaceful. It was confusing me.
Day4: Today in meditation it was easier to keep my mind focused. And it seems that I hear more sounds now, I can hear all of the birds singing outside and feel the vibration of each car passing by. I felt as though my body was being pulled in many directions, I was not sure if I was moving or if the ground beneath me was moving. It was a very strange feeling. I also felt a light cool wind on my face and when I breathe it in it was very cool and sweet and felt very pure. I saw visions again of eyes and snakes, but this time small bright blue dots where in my visions. Sometimes they where the pupils in the eyes and sometimes they where the eyes on the snake shinning bright. And sometimes there where many of them. I felt like Kundalini was releasing blockages in my upper back, especially on the right side of my spine. Then I felt a strong energy in my lower back, the energy tickled me and I laughed. Sometimes my hands feel numb and cool burning sensation all over my body that felt very pleasant. I did not feel sad like yesterday, today I felt calm and peaceful inside. I felt very connected with the universe. I also felt strong sensation on the top of my head like many tiny needles and my upper back. And also a sense of restlessness, like I can not sit still for too long, I needed to move around and be with plants and nature.
Day5: Today's sitting was again a subtle one. I feel mainly energy in my upper spine, back and shoulders. I felt like I was falling asleep but still awake and aware. Then I heard two drum like sounds in my right ear and I sat up straight. Then I felt like Kundalini was adjusting the way I was sitting. I felt intense pressure and burning like pain in my neck. I tried to move my neck to relieve some of the pressure but I could not! I felt a little bit scared. Then it was like a hot straight light was inserted from the top of my head down all the way down my neck then to the root of my spine. The top of my head felt like someone was pushing it down. Again I had visions of eyes and bright blue dots. I felt so much energy moving around it was hard to sit still, like Kundalini wanted me to move around jump, run, sing, dance all at the same time. I felt pressure inbetween my eyes and then my head began to hurt. Then Kundalini moved me to bow many times and the pressure was released a little. Sometimes I would feel strong energy powerful wanting to rise up from the bottom of my spine, it feels like I might die because it is to strong for my body to take. But I remain calm and tell myself that if I die it is only my physical self not my soul. My body is also jerking from time to time. And again it feels like the ground is moving beneath me, as if I am being shaken.
Day6: Today in sitting my experience was very strong. I felt so much energy in my spine and body. My body could not stop jerking and shaking. So much energy shoot from the bottom of my spine like a fountain, it felt painful and blissful at the same time, I laughed and then I wanted to cry. My body move to bow many times and I asked for blessings, I don't know why I asked but it felt like a natural thing to do. After I feel very peaceful and I feel much compassion.
This is my true experience with Shaktipat and Kundalini awakening. I hope that me being open about my experience I’ve helped others be open and have faith that Yogi Madan is indeed a true to heat Guru. Sir has been very nurturing during my whole experience. Sir was not judgmental or absent in emotion. I am on the seekers path to self-realization and Yogi Madan never told me I was on the wrong path or try to force me into a certain belief. Yogi Madan’s blessing of Shaktipat has been like a map for me. I have great respect and deep gratitude towards Yogi Madan.
September 15, 2008
Thank you for helping me realize JOY.
This has been the most amazing experience.
*Much love and respect*
July 30, 2008
I was in search of a soul who can help me on the path of kundalini mahayoga. In today’s day and age it is very difficult to find a true and sincere help. In my further search I happen to find Madan Yogi. I found him to be very honest, sincere and devoted spiritual mentor. He gave me shaktipat initiation. My experience was subtle but still powerful in its own right. It is not always what happens outside but also what happens inside overtime that counts. I am very grateful to him for his help and continual spiritual guidance. I look forward to learn and grow with him.
July 20, 2008
I was in keen search of a real path to self realization when i met my Guru/Mentor Shri Deepak Yogi Ji at Hapur. Before that i have tried several kind of meditation and yoga techniques but nothing very fruitful. He initiated me in Kundalini Yoga with Shaktipat Deeksha in May 2004. At that time Kriya Shakti starts working in my body and I felt some current running through my spine and felt tremendous energy in my head, that experience was so nice. After that whenever i sit for meditation Kriyas started them self even just by thinking about Kriya Shakti/Guruji/Spiritual beings. I have got many sittings of Shaktipat which boosted my Kriyas and depth of meditation. I was having chronic backache which was not allowing me to sit longer in straight posture, once my Guruji touched my back during yoga practice and that backache was cured forever. Kriya shakti is always helping and guiding me. We belong to Siddha Lineage of Swami Vishnu Teerthji Maharaj. My Guruji is now brahmaleen, one with the omnipresent consciousness and always guiding all of us through our inner self. He had authorized his elder most disciple Yogi Madan Gautam ji as his successor Guru. Madan Gautam ji is a sincere devotee and practicing Siddha kundalini yoga from last ten years. Yogi Madan Gautam ji is my brother disciple. He has deep affection towards me and all the brother disciples. He is carrying the great work of my Guruji and spreading his message, he is also giving Shaktipat Deeksha to sincere truth seekers. We are sure and it's our wish to god that he will take this torch of Shaktipat kundalini yoga to far above expectations. Guruji and all Siddhas bless all of us. OM
July 2, 2008
When I received an email from Yogi Gautaum I knew exactly what the reason was. I had been waiting for so long to meet the person who could teach me the things that I need to know about how to raise my kundalini responsibly and properly. I have always been very deeply intone with my own reservoir of kundalini, I have been a force since I was a little girl, but up until I meditated with Yogi Madan it was not being properly used and now I understand that it could not possibly be used correctly without the shaktipat.
I believe that for the first time in my life I am feeling the true and constructive energies that have always been there, in my character and my life path, but could not be actualized. I was a piece of machinery that worked, just like most of us, but it seemed like I was tapping my own power in incredibly inefficient ways. I would deplete my energies very quickly and then also get bursts of too much with no idea how to use it. That seemed to be the mode of operation for most of my life. Incredible insights, energies, understanding, but I think that the best way to describe how I was before as ‘ill’, energetically, which I am now realizing is only just now changing for the first time.
Six years ago, age 21 my whole life changed in a way I never could have anticipated. I fractured my spine and suddenly went from being a classical dancer, gymnast and avid soccer/basketball player…to doing nothing. It felt like my whole connection to the world was cut off, what I didn’t realize at the time was that my connection to the world the way it was before WAS gone, but my connection to the greater world, the universe at large, was being allowed to wake up. Before my injuries I was a body in motion, free and- I believe- very attached to my personal kundalini force, but with no control, no fine tuning. Like a battery that drains its charge but has as remarkable charge when it works=), I really had no idea at that point how to balance myself or control my reservoir. My level of conscious awareness was usually the thing inside me that was half asleep… and I was raised by very conscientious, poor and humble people compared to most in this country, but even at my best it was impossible for me to be using my energy in the proper way. It was like a propeller rocketing me around my life with no understanding or cultivation. Being rocketed around by powerful forces you don’t understand gets you nowhere pretty quickly.
After I broke my spine the whole world changed to one bed, starring at one ceiling, for 6 months. After lying in that bed for 6 months you lose all your precious muscle mass, which is very important for holding the spine in place…and then there is really nothing you can do to get it back once whatever muscles are left grow back in whatever way they can manage. The next summer I was required to have surgery again, with only 2 months of recovery.
The experience of fracturing my spine and watching my world close down to a tiny pinhole seemed like a curse on my life for a lot of years. Intense and disciplined classical ballet was the center of my life, if I had ever felt really passionately in love with something in this world it was that. And now, here I was, in pain all the time and I don’t take any prescription medication. Shut away from the world. FORCED to just be. I felt like I had left the world. I was angry...in deep deep ways. I was sad. I thought my life was over. But of course what I thought was a curse on my life has led me to this point, but its led me soooo far from that place and now its led me way out here to this amazing house in the middle of nowhere, complete with the recent traumatic break up between my partner and I…after trusting him and moving out here…its forced me to face the few things that have been left unattended inside of me
It stared me right in the face and put me into a position where I had no choice but to make a few huge jumps in my own personal growth. And here I am, fully working on it and really working it out. I can say that with complete confidence. Its joyful.
Two months ago when I got an email from Yogi Madan I was skeptical about dealing with anyone who calls themselves a guru, especially online, but after reading only a few of his writings and responses to people in his tribes I new that I trusted him and that this was not a front, this was not about HIM, he was not misusing these important tools. I felt, this might sound silly, but he was not coming from the third eye haha- he was coming from the fifth.
Even still I was wondering if it would be a good idea to go through the process of kundalini raising in my current living situation, going through the painful process of parting ways with my partner, but it was just so natural and I knew it was the right thing to do. I knew that raising kundalini could be potentially destructive, but I believe that it was the absolute time and place for this to happen, Yogi Madan in obviously very intuitive =)
All his message said was “would you like me to show you who you are in reality? OM”
and I knew exactly what he meant by that. I was almost in disbelief that I was finally getting my chance! And it just happened without me seeking him out, he found me.
I was ready to get rid of one more layer of self…and this time it was going to be a big one, require some help. I felt like Kali Ma was waving that Vagra brush at me…asking me if I wanted to do things the hard way or the harder way. I picked the hard way- possibly for the first time in my life I picked the hard way over the harder one!- and Im so glad.
I am so grateful for the experience and at the time I had no idea what to expect. I have a lot of experience with meditation and yoga and out of body work, but this was a completely unique experience. I felt physiological reactions to the meditation that I normally would not have felt so consistently…for the first three days I felt intense heat and pressure all over my body but concentrated around the main chakra meridians, very intensely around my solar plexus, main heart chakra and the two sides of the heart chakra inside the shoulder and below the colar bone. I felt my root chakra doing… things haha, from about the first five minutes of the first hour session and throughout all four sessions. The third day was very intense with the strongest heat and pressure of all four days concentrated (mostly) just around the heart chakra and my head…
and led into the fourth days experience perfectly. The fourth day I felt something completely different. I could only describe it as being perfectly still and sitting up but feeling like I am between awake and asleep…falling, but sitting up perfectly straight. This state came to me within the first few moments of the fourth days meditation and lasted the whole hour, like I was taking one long in and out breath that last for one whole hour.
This was the most beautiful experiences of my life and definitely one of the greatest things that I have done for my own well being, for my life. I needed his help, I asked and asked…or just sort of set my intention…to connect with someone like I him… but I had no idea how or when I would meet him. Throughout our meditation sessions I felt as if I were sitting right there with him… If my mind wandered or if I tried too hard to ‘observe’ the physical sensations I would just feel him pull my attention, very gently and caring, back to the direct connection between us while we were sitting there. I felt like he was just making small but important adjustments in my body…maybe the places where I am losing energy or am too closed off to energy in other places. Ive felt for some time like my chakras are fractured where my spine is fractured (around the 2nd and 3rd.. chakras, I have a metal cage around the L4 and L5 vertebrae…metal and the chakra meridians?) Sitting with him was a very particular feeling, which I don’t believe I have even ever felt with someone who I was sitting right next to, let alone someone on the other side of the world. It was a perfectly loving peaceful place, I didn’t feel uncomfortable at all.
I am very grateful for that experience. I am grateful to myself for having the sense to engage in the shaktipat when it came to me!
Most of all I am in awe of the work that Yogi Madan in doing, helping one person at a time, which is the only true way to affect the world.
April 29, 2008
Blessings Yogi Madan,
I love what you said in a recent posting, "It is sure that without inner awakening you cannot liberate"... the simple Truth. Thank you for this timely reminder to me.